I am asked that question daily. By friends, and neighbors and I still have no answer.
I am slowly coming out of denial. Steve has what is called vascular or stroke induced dementia. For such a long time, I would just excuse it as "He had a stroke". Yes, he did but as things get worse as he is able to do less and less, and I do more and more, I have to come to grips with I am not alright.
So, how am I doing? I don't really know. I just had to make a major decision of replacing the floor of the carport, that was damaged by the neighbor's water runoff. I pay all the bills, I do basically everything! Alone!
I keep telling myself, I will take care of me, so far, I am not doing a very good job of that, the reason I stopped writing for a few months was I was hiding. I don't want to face things as they are.
This is where we are today. Tomorrow will be so different.
Hard times DO surface from time to time, but good things always seem to replace them. Some days it's just not easy, and I'm sorry you're going through this time right now, Nonie. It's so nice when we stop for a moment and take care of ourselves every now and then. We come back refreshed and ready to go again. How wonderful you keep going through it all and never quit. That's the most important thing, and very special, indeed.
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Thank you sheri, some days are hard but it's not always bad.
DeleteOh I am so sorry to hear all of this. I can totally relate to suddenly having to do it all. Please take care of yourself. Do what is necessary and let some things wait until tomorrow if you need to. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteMarty, you are my hero. You have been through so much but yet you hold it all together.
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