Going to try as best I can

 

The garden is sleeping under a pile of snow. Maybe a bit like life, we all have those times, when it is best to just rest.

To just let things be as they are. I know the saying of getting the best from life. To enjoy each day as it comes, but that is not always possible. Some day's it is just a matter of making it through that day and hoping tomorrow will be better.

I had hoped to be one of those brave people, that can go through an experience and document every single moment.  I am not one of those people. I am one that finds avoidance of the moment. Like this is just not happening,

So, I will try to do better.  I think it will be a good thing. Not something I want to do, but something I think will help me.

I am learning new terms like sundowning, learning to deal with sundowning.  Trying to remove myself from the situation and just deal with what is happening, from a distance, not from being a person involved.

Connie, I sent an email, I hope you got it.

So much for now. 

Much Better

 

Day two of hospice.  Yesterday was very busy, with nurses fluffing about. The did manage to get Steve on some new prescriptions that will help with his anxiety.

They are already working, and we are having a much better day.

If you stubble by my blog and hospice is something you are familiar with, I would love to hear from you.  Right now, I just find writing about it a bit better. Plus, they suggested keeping track of how the days go. I am more likely to remember things if I write them down.

Steve has been refusing food, I hope that changes today. So far, he did do his own coffee using the Keurig.  Seems to be much calmer, that could also be because no one is poking at him.

Visit Pam at the sunshine cottage

 Whenever I need to escape, I head over to Pam and her sunshine cottage. Her blog is just one of sheer peace and beauty.  I am directed there so many times and I know it is God doing the directing.

Her Sunshine cottage is so pretty, yet fun, nothing is taken to serious. I did tell her I do visit from time to time and days like today you will find me there.

I thought I would share just in case you need a spot to visit.

Autumn Days In The Sunshine Cottage (everydayliving.me)

Her blog is

Everyday Living

I love this visit to the cottage because it is fall and decorated perfectly.

A tired I didn't know was possible

McGlinns is still taking pictures of our beautiful valley.

Mike took this one to show the smoke is finally lifting a bit.

I know it has been a long time since I have written anything. I have lived on hope for so long, it became my reality.  Now, they have called in hospice for Steve, and I have anew denial to work through.

I also am tired, very, very tired. It is not like a physical tiredness, which feels so good.  This is a deep bone tired I didn't even know was possible. 

I am not sure if writing will help me through it, or at least deal with it but it is what I am going to try. 

For now, life is an alternate universe, somewhere between acceptance and denial.

Part two

The next part of Nana Diana's was to tell 11 things about me.

That took a bit of thinking on my part because I really do not know anymore.

So, thank you Diana for helping me stop and take a look at who I am.

Just love music, symphony to country.

I am a romantic

Fascinated by history and love touring old Victorian homes.  

I enjoy making wee care gowns for babies

and Christmas stockings for those going through chemo

Follow two amazing gals on you tube and pretend I can also decorate.

Make a just for me coffee drink

Now, that makes the day go amazing.

That about sums it up.  I am a pretty simple gal.

Meeting the challenge by Nana Diane

Meeting the challenge from a post made in

the blog of

Nana Diana Takes A Breakhttps://thenanadiana.blogspot.com/

Really a bit harder than I thought it would be but she said to tell her about me.

Posted some questions, so we could all play along,

 1.  Where do you like to vacation?

Hotel Accommodations in Mackinac Island, Michigan - Grand Hotel (historichotels.org) I have never been there but I sure would love it.

2.  Do you have pets?

Not sure who owns who, this is Drusilla.

3.  What is your favorite color?

That would be red. I love red.

4.  How many are in your family?

1 sister and two brothers, I have lost my sister and one brother. we have 5 children, that went out and came back with a mate so that upped it to ten. Then they multiplied and we have 11 grandchildren that have given us 7 greatgrandchildren. wow!

5.  What is your least favorite thing to do?

Drive, hate it.

6.  What is your most favorite thing to do?

sew, love to create 

7.  If money were no object what would you like to do when you retire?

I am retired, and boating is my thing.

8.   What is your favorite season?

summer

9.   What book are you currently reading?

Sugar camp quilt, by Jennifer Chiaverini

10. What time do you go to bed, get up in the morning?

that is an interesting question because I have been going to bed at hubby time which is nine. I can not fall asleep, so why am I going to bed? Drusilla lets me sleep til 6am.

11. How long have you been blogging?

On and off for a few years, I think about six years?

The second half of this is to tell 11 things about me. I do not follow directions very well, so I will do that one at a diifferent day because I do not know what to say.

Hoping for sun

I think this is the coldest month of May ever.

Rain, wind and just super cold. I have done very little in my tiny garden because I am cold!

I am one of those. I love the heat type person.

We do get rainbows

Picture by Mike.