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The Month the Ground Shifted

I keep thinking there must be a word for when life tilts so fast you can’t quite catch your balance. Something between whiplash and wonder. Something that sits in your chest like a bird that isn’t sure whether to fly or hide. Because that’s what this last month has felt like — a strange, unreal stretch of days where the ground under my feet kept changing shape.

It started with the letter.

The rent increase. The new water fee. The kind of envelope that makes your stomach drop before you even open it.

I remember standing at the counter, reading the words twice, maybe three times, trying to make sense of how a no‑spend year could be blindsided by something so basic, so unavoidable. You can plan meals, mend clothes, stretch groceries, and make peace with “enough,” but you can’t out‑budget the land you live on. That was the betrayal moment — the one that made me feel small and tired and a little angry.

And then… nothing.

No follow‑up. No explanation. Just silence long enough to make me wonder if the water fee had fizzled out or if something bigger was brewing behind the scenes.

Two weeks later, another letter arrived — this one heavier, like it carried a different kind of weight. The park was for sale, it said. And as renters of the spaces, we could put in an offer to purchase.

I didn’t even know what to do with that. I set the letter aside, let it sit there like a strange visitor I wasn’t ready to talk to. Buying the park? Me? Us? It felt like someone had handed me a puzzle with half the pieces missing.

But life wasn’t done tilting.

A notice was hand‑delivered — not mailed, not tucked into a box, but placed directly into my hands. There was going to be a meeting on Sunday, right in the parkway. A meeting to talk about the sale. A meeting to talk about what could happen next.

I walked down there expecting confusion, maybe frustration, maybe a few neighbors shrugging their shoulders the same way I had. Instead, I found something else entirely.

ROC Northwest was there. Talking about co‑ops. Talking about resident ownership. Talking about the possibility — the real, tangible possibility — that we could form a cooperative and buy the park ourselves.

I sat there listening, trying to keep up, trying to understand how we had gone from a rent hike to a potential community purchase in less than a month. My head spun. My heart did something complicated — a mix of fear, hope, disbelief, and that quiet voice that whispers, Is this really happening?

Because it didn’t feel real. It still doesn’t feel real.

And now there’s another meeting on the horizon, another gathering where we’ll learn more, ask questions, try to figure out what this means for our homes, our futures, our neighbors. I keep thinking about how strange it is that while I’ve been trying to live intentionally — to choose enoughness, to slow down, to spend less — the biggest plot twist of the year isn’t about money at all. It’s about the land beneath my feet shifting while I’m trying to stand still.

Maybe that’s the lesson tucked inside all of this: that even in a year of restraint, life will still surprise you. It will still demand courage. It will still ask you to show up, even when you don’t feel ready.

So here we are. Waiting for the next meeting. Trying to understand what’s going on. Trying to breathe through the unrealness of it all.

And maybe — just maybe — trying to imagine what it would feel like to not just live here, but to own the place together.