I am asked that question daily. By friends, and neighbors and I still have no answer.
I am slowly coming out of denial. Steve has what is called vascular or stroke induced dementia. For such a long time, I would just excuse it as "He had a stroke". Yes, he did but as things get worse as he is able to do less and less, and I do more and more, I have to come to grips with I am not alright.
So, how am I doing? I don't really know. I just had to make a major decision of replacing the floor of the carport, that was damaged by the neighbor's water runoff. I pay all the bills, I do basically everything! Alone!
I keep telling myself, I will take care of me, so far, I am not doing a very good job of that, the reason I stopped writing for a few months was I was hiding. I don't want to face things as they are.
This is where we are today. Tomorrow will be so different.