Much Better

 

Day two of hospice.  Yesterday was very busy, with nurses fluffing about. The did manage to get Steve on some new prescriptions that will help with his anxiety.

They are already working, and we are having a much better day.

If you stubble by my blog and hospice is something you are familiar with, I would love to hear from you.  Right now, I just find writing about it a bit better. Plus, they suggested keeping track of how the days go. I am more likely to remember things if I write them down.

Steve has been refusing food, I hope that changes today. So far, he did do his own coffee using the Keurig.  Seems to be much calmer, that could also be because no one is poking at him.

Visit Pam at the sunshine cottage

 Whenever I need to escape, I head over to Pam and her sunshine cottage. Her blog is just one of sheer peace and beauty.  I am directed there so many times and I know it is God doing the directing.

Her Sunshine cottage is so pretty, yet fun, nothing is taken to serious. I did tell her I do visit from time to time and days like today you will find me there.

I thought I would share just in case you need a spot to visit.

Autumn Days In The Sunshine Cottage (everydayliving.me)

Her blog is

Everyday Living

I love this visit to the cottage because it is fall and decorated perfectly.

A tired I didn't know was possible

McGlinns is still taking pictures of our beautiful valley.

Mike took this one to show the smoke is finally lifting a bit.

I know it has been a long time since I have written anything. I have lived on hope for so long, it became my reality.  Now, they have called in hospice for Steve, and I have anew denial to work through.

I also am tired, very, very tired. It is not like a physical tiredness, which feels so good.  This is a deep bone tired I didn't even know was possible. 

I am not sure if writing will help me through it, or at least deal with it but it is what I am going to try. 

For now, life is an alternate universe, somewhere between acceptance and denial.